GREAT is His faithfulness

My life is so full ... I just can't get over how blessed I am. Maybe it's because I'm more of a relational person, athough I'm not gonna say I don't like "stuff" (I mean, who doesn't like stuff???) ... but seriously, I'm just so content. Not an apathetic, no goals or hopes or dreams kind of content, but more of a really, really grateful for where I am and who I'm with kind of content.

The last 3 years or so have been very, very trying. And honestly, we're still in the midst of the trial! I've prayed and prayed that God would give me eyes to see ... and I think He has! It was so hard to leave Pennsylvania ... and then Virginia ... and then Colorado. It was so hard to feel like every other month something else knocked us down, whether financially, physically, emotionally ... I was starting to expect new crises every morning, not new mercies.

But now, almost 3 years later, I've realized several things. One, that's life! I could sit and stew in our problems OR, I don't know, flip open a newspaper and realize that EVERYONE has them. Two, the important things in my life have only been strengthened, not taken. My relationship with Gregg has most definitely been tested, but we are strong, in love, and very much enjoy each other. Three, I can see circustances for what they're NOT or choose to see them for what they ARE. Allow me to explain ...

I have been working from home for over 2 years now and honestly, it hasn't been my cup o' tea. It was supposed to be a temporary thing when we first moved, but I decided to stick with it when I found out I was pregnant. I'm an outgoing, "people person," so balancing work, a child, a house, etc. while being home alone all day has NOT been easy. But you know, without this job, we would have never made it these last 2 years. I could choose to see it as the provision that it IS (both for income and the ability to stay home with my son) or complain about the dream job that it is not.

Now we are living with my in-laws while we pay off some debt, get settled in NY and (hopefully!) buy a house. Is this an ideal living situation? Not really, although I must say it hasn't been bad. But I do miss having the pride of my own place, plus my own schedule, my own decor, the ability to be moody whenever I want ;). And I could choose to focus on the fact that I don't have those things for this season of time. Or I could focus on the fact that I DO have financial stability for the first time in a long time, plus built-in babysitting and grandparents to spoil my little boy! It took longer than we anticipated for Gregg to find a job when we moved and we would have never been able to handle a rent or mortgage payment. God knew and took care of it!

All that to say, I choose to look on the bright side because it truly is brighter. I thank God for His faithfulness and care ... even for things we never knew we'd need.